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Desire for an image to describe this feeling. Searching for a name to label it with. Content in the familiar feeling inner solitude. The eb and flow of this may be determined but is rarely predictable. Is there some one who knows my name? Perhaps its better to pull ties and float endlessly. Would the hunger be worse then the fall?

My whole life moves in a moment of pure simplicity. Beyond an innocents, and into the realm of pure raw nature. the production of ideas we were built to think. built to feel. built to do and go and watch and see. even in the softness that is heartache and the pain that is loss there is a subtle beauty that once again evokes the moment of awe.

somewhere. somehow.

i am relearning to breath. i am sitting. i am waiting. i am listening.


i am feeling. i am celebrating your life, with my own.




i may not have the words, but i promise you that i have the heart.
for you i will find a way.

its slower now and i can feel it in my joints. the insides are whispering to the outsides. will you leave us, will you leave us, will you leave us. i cant imagine where to aim the bow and the speeding water is rushing though me. the breath is cooler then the air. the sounds scream below the surface and i hear the pain of a thousand cries. i wanted to turn it down, wanted to find the silence, wanted to make the turn, wanted to want.

golden the the light that saves your life. the only question left tin its wake was worth.

she said, she said

and so he want.

i don't want to remember you.

that was the fluttering floating thought that arouse nine second into the song. its the feeling that lingers in the early morning when one wagers weather the dreams will return if you were to stay in bed. there is an ever so constant reminder of sleeplessness that comes with the warming weather.

the time shift is eminent and always uninvited. losing the ability to remember what fast and slow feel like. the speeding car. the tops of trees tease and yet just the other day i watch them fall from the sky. the heart breaking sound of a hundred limbs snapping in a split second.

even i start to forget the numbers now.

wait wait dont tell me.

humm, ward. soul searching lovin.. rave on.

6ft leash.

relentless is the beating heart in the truth of love.

yikes

that was almost funny. falling down the wrong path of two that really are not much different.

To Be reborn.

Not in the sense that i have newly acquired anything.
But for an instant to wake up and breath fresher air.